I don’t mean to sound insensitive, but…

…if you can help it, please don’t bring your kid to your fertility appointment. Believe me when I say that I don’t want to sound insensitive. I know that infertility and miscarriage do not only affect women without children, and I know that having to go through it is a nightmare no matter what. I get that. And I also understand that it is not easy or cheap to arrange for child care. But please hear me out. I went to a fertility appointment the other day, with my future plans very much in limbo. I was not happy to begin with, as I can imagine are most of us in that waiting room. Anyway, in the waiting room was a couple with a toddler, among others. The couple with the toddler were, understandably, making the most noise and drawing the most attention. The toddler was walking around, playing on her noisy iPad… things like that. Totally innocent! But it made me feel down. Obviously babies and children exist and I will be seeing them out in the world. But I don’t want to see them at my fertility clinic, the ONE PLACE where I don’t feel alone, the ONE PLACE where there are other women going through similar struggles. I fall into the category of women who would do anything just to become a parent. I don’t have a child to go home to and give extra hugs and playtime after coming home from my fertility appointments. I don’t have that.  I am not saying my struggle is better/worse than yours, but it is different.

Just like going to a baby shower is hard because it is a reminder that you are not pregnant, seeing babies in the fertility clinic is hard for me because it is a reminder that I am not a mother.  I’m not expecting you to agree with me, but I ask to at least try to understand where I am coming from.

 

 

 

4 thoughts on “I don’t mean to sound insensitive, but…”

  1. I totally understand. I’ve seen people at my clinic with tiny babies – like not even a year old yet – and I find that to be even more of a reminder of what I don’t have than older children. Probably because I’m concentrating on just getting a baby, I don’t even dare to imagine what life would be like with a toddler!

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  2. I completely understand! I remember this feeling so well. At my last transfer a lady brought a baby in a carrier with her and it made me so upset that she wasn’t considering those around her! My hubby persuaded me that she probs had no choice and I’d like to think that was the case xx

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    1. Thank you for understanding! I’m sorry it happened to you too, and on a transfer day, no less. It was hard for me to write this without sounding insensitive, so I thank you for sharing your story as well! Makes me feel less alone ❤

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